Fasting Buddy Out There? Beginning a Fast Tomorrow 1/12/10 - War on Food Addiction!

by CW

I am officially declaring a war on my food addiction. It is totally ruining my life and I'm putting my foot down. I don't deserve this pain any more. No body does.

I am a college student, and a year and a half ago I was put on an SSRI to pull me out of a depression (not really a traditional depression at all; actually ended up being side effects of a brain tumor that the psychiatrist knew nothing about thanks to their total lack of care about anything other than prescribing drugs).

Well, last semester the SSRI threw me into a hypomania where I was emotionally dragged everywhere, high and low; I didn't sleep and I ate EVERYTHING in site to cope with the emotional roller coaster ride as well as an insatiable appetite.

Over the course of 6 hellish weeks I gained 35 lbs of fat, lost all self-esteem, and quit the varsity track team out of embarrassment.

A few weeks ago I saw my psychiatrist and said "this is it!" and went cold turkey off the meds. Withdrawal symptoms are since gone and my head feels much better. I even lost a little weight initially and gained some self-confidence back in the process.

However, now I am back at school and am falling back into the old bad habits. Everywhere I go terrible memories flood my head and so far I have given into my developed bad habit of eating for comfort. It makes me feel so horrible and I am back up to around 200lbs now. The last thing I need is for my self-confidence to take another shot.

I need to do something to prove to myself that I can do this and overcome this addiction. I feel like the Lord has been calling me to fast for months now and I've always failed or talked myself out of it. That's changing now.

Tomorrow, I will begin a new battle in my fight against food and it would be great if someone else out there would like to be a fasting buddy.
There is strength in numbers. This is very hard to do alone.

Let me know. :o)

CW