Housecleaning and Removing Temptation!

by Carolyn
(Virginia)

I have had this problem with food addiction and just having food in my house makes it a struggle for me. So i got rid of all my binge foods like cereal. My mother would be mortified. She thought it was a sin to waste food. When i was a teenager i was anorexic, i starved myself to 70 lbs.

When my mother finally found out she asked me how i did it, and i told her i skipped breakfast and threw away the lunches she had packed for me. The first thing she said was, "you threw away all that good food." She was more upset about the wasted food than she was that i was starving myself half to death.

She made me feel like i was just a worthless piece of trash. Now i'm 43 and i still have issues with eating and body image, when i get angry and want to lose weight i throw away food and it gives me a feeling of power.

Maybe it's wrong, maybe it's a sin but i also think it's wrong to abuse food for emotional numbing. Sorry for rambling but i just had to get that off my chest.

Now there's nothing in my house except coffee, milk and creamer, and one jar of peanut butter. It is comforting to know i have nothing to binge on. I'm going to try to fast on coffee and water for a couple of days.